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Ordinary Visions

We sometimes think that visions and transrational intuitions are “hooey” or otherwise only experienced by the rare sages, the recluses on the mountain top, or the solitary crone in the woods. But what if psychic vision is an ordinary part of our human meaning-making apparatus? Ordinarily accessible, and yet extraordinarily rarely accessed: is transrational wisdom really as esoteric as we think?

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The Courage to Scream

In honor of Mother’s Day, I look back at one hell of a moment, with one hell of a woman. Here’s to you, Maman! And to all the mothers who teach us how to step out of line to come back home.

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Delusions of Smallness

Ever feel “small” or not-so-“good” about yourself? How human is that! But, what is the goodness we’re looking for, and where are we looking for it? And, when we’re trying to heal the split of continually perceiving ourselves as “good” or “bad,” what does encountering a more equanimous (dare I say, nondual?) self-esteem look like? Join me as I grapple with my own feelings of smallness and finally relax into a “goodness-with-no-opposite.”

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Within the Brokenness

When your job necessarily means being exposed to trauma regularly, and you see or hear about seemingly extreme situations all day long, how do you reside in the place beyond extremes? Is there such a sanctuary? And does it actually look or feel the way you expect? Explore these questions alongside me, as I share vignettes from my chaplaincy world and stumble my way into a new place of understanding.  

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Loving Conflict v. Loving Conflict

We can have a bias towards “keeping the peace” at all costs, even when it’s harmful to ourselves or others. But conflict can be healthy, especially when it’s engaged in lovingly. How can we know when conflict is necessary? And how can we “get into it” with someone out of a genuine desire to help rather than win? Check out this post to learn about your own conflict style, and where you might be able to grow.

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Letting Go of the Birthing Bias, and Dying to Live

If there is one major internally held bias it is our tendency to grasp on to “life” and push away “death.” But what if these categories aren’t as polarized as we initially believe them to be? How can letting go of our aversion things dying and dissolving give way to a richer sense of being? Find out about our birthing bias and what it means to die to live. (Image courtesy of Coppersmith Photography)

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What Does it Mean to ‘Heal the Inner Divide?’

In this first blog post, I explore what the main theme of this blog: what it means to reconcile the splits within ourselves. We turn to Black Tara for help, and then embark on this journey to question everything lovingly, one bias and a time.

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